Waiting for the Big #13
I saw my RE in his offices last week. Usually after a failed cycle he’ll phone to talk about ‘the plan’ for the next cycle (not much of a plan; he never changes anything). When stim cycle #11 produced no embryos, he phoned me from his car to tell me. I could barely hear him, and he was just being chatty about the fat I’d waste more time, more money, more stress, and had no chance of a child. So when stim cycle #12 produced yet another BFN I didn’t want a phone call from his car. I had questions and wanted them answered.
So lucky me. last week I saw him in his offices. And asked my questions. I received answers to some. For example, after the miscarriage and before stim cycle #11 I had all sorts of blood tests done. And how did I hear about the results to them? ‘The boys’ (My husband and the RE) chatted about them briefly while I was getting dressed after a scan. So all I got was my husband’s summary, which was ‘there wasn’t anything’. Sorry – I’d still like to hear about it myself. So apparently I’m heterozygos for MTHFR. Still doesn’t tell me much, but at least now I know. Most other questions the RE talked around. Do you know how much I’d like a straight answer from him just once?!
Anyway, so now I’m waiting for AF so I can start injections on Day 2. This will be my 13th stim cycle. It will be an antagonist cycle. And I’m sure it will all come to nothing.