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STILL Waiting

AF is usually a week late after a stim cycle.  Judging by what my body has been doing, I either ovulated on the 14th or the 21st of May.  Here’s hoping AF isn’t so late I can’t squeeze in my cycle before my RE jets off overseas yet again.  Hopefully this Friday will be it.

I don’t know how I’m going to get through this cycle, much less the wait for it to start.  I have no fuse – none at all,  I have forgotten how to cope entirely.  Yesterday I couldn’t get the vacuum to work – so like a mature adult I threw it on the floor violently and went downstairs to do something else.  Which really was the good option, as what I really wanted to do was toss it out the window.  I could imagine the sound it would make, the cascade of glass, and the violence of it landing.  That’s what I wanted.  All I wanted was to break things.  Then as I tried to get something out of our microscopic pantry, I bumped something else and it fell onto the floor.  Luckily the glass jar didn’t break, but I just knelt on the ground and cried.

I’m done.   I have no more ‘cope’ left in me.

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    31/05/2010 at 1:09 pm

    I hope you get a chance to regain some cope…

  2. 31/05/2010 at 6:25 pm

    OMG…you are so in my head right now. I don’t have much of a fuse either. Whenever I drop something on the floor I’m like, ‘you suck, so you can stay there.’ i just don’t care. If I could excercise, though, I’d do kickboxing. I have to say it helps a little. Hoping you are able to squeeze this cycle in before the RE departs. Thank you so much for your lovely and supportive comments sweetie, they mean so much to me.

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